hello, my love.

He told me that he liked me and has for a while now. He’s been there through everything. All of my high points, my low points. My dumb decisions, my smart choices. My break ups, my hook ups. Everything. Through all of that mess, he’s stuck with me and continues to, for some reason, want to be with me. He confessed this not too long ago. And now, it’s ruining everything.

Because we’ve told each other we like each other, we’ve had to decide what to do about it. We’ve chosen to wait until the time feels right. We aren’t going to force anything; if it’s meant to happen, it will.

SO, tell me why he told my best friend that he likes her.

I just don’t get it. Honestly. I’ve sat here and thought that what me and him have… or could have, rather… It could actually be something. It could actually last. We’ve talked about things past high school, past college, past his schooling at Annapolis. We’ve talked about a future for us. For love. And in the moment, we’ve decided to hold off. It kills me.

Plus it just pisses me off that someone could say one thing and turn around and say the same thing to my best friend. And she buys into it. I even believe as we speak they’re on a walk together. They’ll be out till curfew… walking. They can’t be trusted together. Something will happen. And if it does, I won’t be able to handle it.